When is it going to be my turn?

Have you ever asked yourself that question?

Don't pretend that you haven't swallowed an entire glass of haterade!! It gets to the best of us. I had a moment earlier this week when I asked myself that question "When is it going to be my turn?" I've never been really patient... maybe I get it from my daddy. It just seemed like great things are happening for people while I just have been feeling stuck. But then, an old friend reminded me, that I have a plan that's just for me. And I thank him for his words.

Here's one of my favorite pick-me-up songs in hard times...



What God has for me, it is for me... I hope you know it too!

I'm fine, and you?

Come now, you know what time it is!!! Time to pull a song out of my bag!



I work in a very tough environment. If you aren't prepared for it, or don't deal very well with stress, it will break you down. And ther's literally no support from up top. I can't tell you how many co-workers are dealing with unexplainable health issues... symptoms that seem to pop up as soon as we walk in the building. I'm constantly asked, "Why are you always smiling?" or, "What are you doing smiling this early in the morning?" Most of the time, I just say, "I don't know!" and keep it moving. Sometimes, honestly, I don't know. But if I stop to think about it, I do know I guess.


I spent sometime very unhappy with my career. So unhappy that I quit! It didn't put us in a very good situation and so I spent even more time unhappy... with just life period. When I decided to go back to work, this location was the only one that gave me a chance when others said they'd be glad to have me, but at the beginning of the next school year. I needed a job then! So I took it. I was and still am, very grateful to have a job, because the alternative just wasn't working. So I will smile and keep it moving through all of that stress, because I know, it's not my forever place. And, I'm just fine with it.

No time for moping around, are you kidding?

And no time for negative vibes, cause I’m winning...

Feels so good, when you’re doing all the things that you want to do

Get the best out of life, treat yourself to something new

Keep your head up high

In yourself, believe in you, believe in me

Having a really good time, I’m not complaining

And I’m a still wear a smile if it raining

I got to enjoy myself regardless

I appreciate life,

I’m so glad I got mine

So I like what I see when I’m looking at me

When I’m walking past the mirror

Aint worried about you and what you gonna do

I’m a lady so I must stay classy

Got to keep it hot,

keep it togetherIf I want to get better

You see I wouldn’t change my life,

my life’s just…..Fine

Are you living your truth?... There's hope!

Every time I turn on the T.V.

Somebody's acting crazy

If you let it, it will drive you crazy

but I'm takin' back my power today

Gas prices they just keep on rising

The government they keep on lying

but we gotta keep on surviving

Keep living our truth and do the best we can do

Stand up for your rights

Keep shining your light

And show the world your smile

There's hope

It doesn't cost a thing to smile

You don't have to pay to laugh

You better thank God for that!

Do you even know how to go about determining what's true for you? Spend some time alone. Find out what makes you happy. In college, I went through a rough time where I had to spend some time alone... not by choice. But it was during that time, that I learned a lot about myself. I began to do things for me, and me alone. I began to learn about the type of person I had been, by simply looking at the choices I'd been making. I decided it was time to put me first and honor who I was.

Are you living your truth?

Apple Tree

My bestie and I love music. I know, who doesn't? She has this incredible skill of taking random statements you make in conversation, thinks of a song that has that exact statement and singing that song on a moment's notice. Sometimes it is the most annoying thing in the world. Then there are times where it's simply hilarious. I love listening to music that has lyrics I can live by, that illustrate my personal truths. I'll give you an example:

Apple Tree by Erycah Badu
See I picks my friends like I pick my fruit
& Ganny told me that when I was only a youth
I don't go 'round trying to be what I'm not
I don't waste my time trying ta get what you got
I work at pleasin' me cause I can't please you
and that's why I do what I do...

And if you don't want to be down with me
Then you don't want to pick from my appletree
And if you don't want to be down with me
You just don't want to be down

Powerful words right? That's how I live. Remember my New Year's resolution " I resolve to please myself"? That's where it comes from. Folks (ok, women) waste too much time and energy trying to keep up with the Jones' and not enough time pursuing their true desires. If you can just follow these words, you can cut out a lot of unnecessary stress in your life. I'm not saying it's easy, but the more you practice it, the easier it becomes.

Just a warning, I'll do this from time to time... I'll pick lyrics that are on my *heart* on a particular day to share. Hey, it's how I keep it sane!